Wednesday, July 26, 2006

I've been starving...

I'm a perpetual student. If something exists, I want to know about it - why, how, where...everything that there is to know, I want to know. It's why when friends ask me what I want for a gift, I tell them to look at my Amazon Wish List (which has no fiction on it). It's why Harrius Potter et Philosophi Lapis was a very thoughtful (and well-used) gift, and why I'm up to Unit 5 in "Alif Baa," an Arabic textbook. It's why I'm going to graduate school...forever ;)

So in the past few years, I've been studying hard, learning lots, and generally getting good grades (Baruch Hashem! ;) ). And...I've been starving. I didn't realize it until recently, but I was gasping for air, for the slightest breath. Caught up in all my work and studies, I barely noticed the lack - but now that I have it back, my world is brighter!

It's Torah.

Sounds cliché , perhaps, but it's true. Earlier this summer, in a weak moment, I told someone that I would give a shiur for women. I'm still not so sure why she asked me, but she did, and I said yes - and so I have to face the consequences. I returned to my high school and seminary notes, scrounging for topics. I borrowed books from all over to research the material. And I'm still terrified for the speech. But I'm feeling so accomplished, so content. There's really something amazing about learning Torah - it changes you, it affects you.

And so when I sit down to my banquet of preparation, every night, I relish each word, each letter. And I hope I never forget this feeling again. Learning is wonderful, but learning Truth...there's nothing like it.

6 comments:

BubbyT said...

are you speaking in shul this shabbos afternoon? if so, I look forward to hearing you.

Stx said...

I can't wait! (Okay, okay, I can.) Hatzlacha with the preparation. And yes, I think that a lot of us can relate to that "thirst" - especially when we're busy with school or work...

aishel said...

Saw the info on the shul bulletin...good luck!

TRW said...

Bubby and Stx - Thanks for the encouragement!

B"H, it went well (although the opening and closing went kinda flat..)

Aishel - Could you imagine? There I was, hoping nobody would come, and not only was it in the bulletin, but they announced it at the main minyan!

The nerve...

BubbyT said...

good job!! made me proud!!

TRW said...

I should preface..."it all started in 3rd grade - even though I was before the powerpoint generation, I had this awesome teacher...;)"